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I don't know. It really bothers me to have some Internet creep starting to really work him/herself up and, when my life really sucks, they just make candid little offers instead of offering actual support despite the fact I have taken action in their time in need. And really, I am not being selfish or hating them for it. It just means that anything you have said about being there for me and loving me with all your heart is pitiful in comparison to somebody who will not ask me to cross a vicious labyrinthine dungeon infested with Magdrackies for a pat on the shoulder. When I whine about it to somebody else, sometimes even to a shy individual, they will make plans to spend some time together or even come straight to my door for a hug.

Hmm. I wonder which one will make a better impact on my heart?

And of course one of my ex-co workers was complaining about me spending time with such awful women when we have been such close friends for so long with common grounds and a similar level of understanding. How about you ask me to do something other than come to a bar/club/party, an idea that I have rejected for as long as we have known each other? And not blanket all of my friends as horrible people?

Sorry. Had to get that off my chest eventually.

*pat pat*

I have hugged my one friend many times, now that I think about it. Her existence a few years ago pretty much fit the definition of Iron Woobie, although I only recently realized how bad she actually had it at the time. Actually, the one time I stopped a panic attack was completely on accident...

But our relationship has always been platonic, so yeah.

Actually, fuck it. It's not the creepy part everyone is going on about. It's the boring part. I don't have a car, I'm always working or schooling, I don't have time for social practices, everyone pisses me off, I'm always angry, tired, sad or depressed, and get angry or cry at the drop of a hat. I don't have any female friends to support; I'm ALWAYS the one that needs it more, because I don't have anything, not even friends. Going out to find any isn't going to work because, again, no time, everything is too far away, and I hate people.

I feel alone, I will probably die alone, and that comic of yours and your comments on it made me feel like I DESERVE IT.

i just made that my deviantart "webcam" pic because it made me laugh so hard for some reason