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It was more like I was supposed to die and I passed out, only to wake up later to feel my lungs in pain and to see what was supposed to kill me somehow broke against all odds. I always keep such a happy face though I'm not a happy person at all. I'll look and sound cheerful all the time. It helps to keep the world positive. :3 Though I don't want to sound emo or anything so I don't want to dwell on things too much.

O.O!!

The same person who always understands me was thrown onto the streets and I haven't heard from her since which doesn't help. :[ Infact that just adds to the worry. There is someone else I talk to about things, but talking about it doesn't fix it. When a lot of people commit suicide, it is due to social, financial or aesthetic reasons. The former two aren't issues for me at all and the other will be corrected over time. The other things that trouble me can never be fixed and I'm not one to "just ignore it and get over it". But really, I take things as a sign to give stuff more time, yet again.

*nods* The good/bad thing about the world is that EVERYTHING changes, and that includes your worries. :\

Well, just remember, Zandrena, if there's anything I can do to help, please, don't hesitate to ask. I will do my best. Otherwise, I really do wish you the best of luck and... I hope that your "near death experience" wasn't something caused by your own deliberate actions. You don't sound like the type to commit suicide just from your above words, but still... I guess I worry too much.

I'm a very open person, I just value positivity! I'm not afraid to reveal my deepest darkest secrets. Like my obsession with blood. Or the fact I'm a little masochistic. I even fully admit I don't drive an automobile because I have some sort of phobia involved with it, which could very well be developed by the horrible instructor I had!

Describing some of the problems are not only extremely difficult (not in the "I'm afraid to tell anyone" sense) but could very well take hours and hours of typing. :p

That sounds rapturous.

I wish I could say the same thing about myself.

It's not a silly thing to say, Kino. I feel the same way. I like everyone here a lot. :] I know I say things that are weird, mysterious, awkward and sometimes just a little creepy but it's all with a good heart. <3 I'm the type of person you could mistake for someone with a mental handicap but I swear I have the presence of mind at all times! I haven't mentioned it but this forum has helped me a lot. For example, finding a good book to read or game to play, or even giving me the idea to take my interest in screenwriting a little further. I've even tried a few of the things suggested in the "What do you eat?" topic with great results! :D

^_^ I know I want to hit up on someone of Kino's tea suggestions! And, yes, I've definitely picked up some books people mentioned.

I love the forums, too, and I'm so glad that you guys have enjoyed them! :3

I could do a better sappy post later. Sorry, but I'm too tense right now since I have a test today.

@ Maia's suggestion: :3 Tomorrow I'll change my own siggy. Wait, what will I do for a avvy? XD It will be a free suggestion unhampered by signature theme!


Totally unrelated note: You want to know what I hate most about winter, though I dearly love the season and the snow... Walking in from the super-cold into a super-heated campus room! >_<
I almost want to send a nasty letter to the dean of the college. I have to deal with the cold air enough as it is, but having to deal with the clogged, humid air of a super-heated room is just as bad. *sobs* Choose my death: stabbing pain deep in my lungs, or the feeling that I can't get enough air in my lungs at all. x_x