School!

[Kinokokao]

I wouldn't have minded the bullying and such had I friends or allies to deflect some of the venom. My mother actually had to call the school and get my Latin and English classes switched my first semester of High School because the English class contained an abundance of jocks/preps -- leaving me an easy target. I actually switched into a Latin class reserved for upperclassmen -- which suited me just fine. My own grade was largely poison at that point... I had maybe a dozen allies/neutrals and absolutely no friends.

I think one of my most humiliating experiences was in my General Business class. I went up to the board to answer a problem, and suddenly this pocket of jocks started coughing "dyke! dyke!" into their hands. Oh, but then there was the time that I got bullied by the fucking middle schoolers on my bus. I was sitting there just trying to read my book, and they kept popping their heads up and around the seats to pester me with questions; "Are you a girl or a boy? Does your mother know you're gay? Why do you look like a dude?"

But I don't want to come across as a victim, either. I was a much different person then than you know today. I doubt that any of you would like that person; I certainly didn't like her. Many of my problems were my own; that person had no friends, largely because she did not deserve them nor was she someone who was pleasant to be around.

Ahh, but that person is gone. I'm not perfect, but I'm happier, more confident, and, hopefully, someone who deserves to have friendly people.

[Maxine MagicFox]

^_^ Sounds like me, Kino. I doubt anyone would have liked my middle school identity, either. I'm SO MUCH MORE FUCKING HAPPY now that I've worked so hard to be who I want to be. I'm still not perfect, I don't want to be, but I'm fine with who I am. Tch, I still catch glimpses of my old self, though. I'm too much of a cry baby. It's something I'll never get past. Something happens and I immediately start crying.

... Not to mention the occasional nightmare I have where I'm that old person back in school.

I still think my biggest personal achievement was in Fitch. We were getting changed out for gym and these two girls who were "preppish" were trying to hold a conversation with me since I had been on their team. They were talking about boyfriends. At first I almost balked and wanted to hide the fact I had never dated. But when the spotlight was on me I just smiled and proudly held my head up high and said something around the lines of: "No. I've never dated. I'm just... not interested in guys." "Are you..." "Am I lesbian? I find nothing wrong with homosexuality, but, no: I'm straight. I have just not found anyone that has seemed worth dating nor has anyone ever come up and expressed an interest."

The girls seemed satisfied with that and they didn't ask any more questions though of course there was still an obvious awkwardness. However, I felt SO much better inwardly. To have stood up for myself while still opening up a can of worms that I was so familiar with. I just felt that I was not betraying the past that I had went through - I didn't want to change "ME" just how I acted and reacted with the world - but that I had still stood up for myself and presented myself better.

[negzee]

[zamisk]

SCHOOL IS FRIGGING RETARDED. >:(

And on a side note, I'm not cut out for Volleyball, the one sport I had a shot at making the team on... I made an ass outta myself..... Didn't know any of the drills cause I missed a year for a knee surgery, waay out of shape, lost most of my skill from not playing since grade 7.

[Maxine MagicFox]

>_< ....... if I get another -5 points for something I'm suppose to "magically divine" without the teacher's instruction, I'm seriously going to lay into him. I explained politely this time that I'm not so sure this was fair. Next time, I'm not going to be so polite and I will let voice to my displeasure.

[ZetaBladeX13]

posting from my programming class.


suffice to say, not much is going on...

[negzee]

[ZetaBladeX13]

[negzee]

[Maxine MagicFox]

[Sampson]

[noodles]

uh

[Maxine MagicFox]

???

Edit: OH!! o_o ZETA!! I MEANT ZETA!! .... you know... this seems like an awfully familiar mistake...

FORGIVE ME!! I'VE BEEN SICK ALL DAY!! T-T might as well be drunk for all the good my head has done me with thinking.

[Sampson]

It probably would've been easier if I switched the order of the quotes.

And what's this? Drunkish? Do I sense some drunk posts coming on?

[ZetaBladeX13]