Hrrrm, it's not that I "forget" just that... when I get up away from the computer I'm no longer "Maxine". It's all part of my second life here. There have been many times I have chatted about my conversations with my family that I've had on here, but still - there's a big distinction for me.
Maxine might "seem" like me, and she is half of me, but it's like Paprika, or Lain even (if anyone has seen either of the anime - Paprika I've only recently seen myself) I'm the same person but I'm different "enough". Not that that's important except that to me I do place a big distinction on it. Web friends are very very dear to me, but they can never compare to real life friends. I would like many of you to be real life friends.
And maybe this is caused by the fact that I've been around the internet for so long. I know how quickly people come and go. ^_^; I still have people on my IM from when I was 12 years old. I need to clean the damn thing out. I dunno what happened anymore. Why did we stop talking? When did the seperation occur? Will they pop back into my life.
Starfe is a good example - I've known him for 10 years or so. He's been on here now and again - currently he's not posted recently. Maybe I'll see him again in a few days (I hope so, he's a real dear friend) or maybe I'll never see him again. I think there's a two year gap in our past relationship when he was gone.
Just like with ItL. Many folks are returning such as Sirth. Some have stated they can't remember why they had stopped posting - :3 but they are back now and that's awesome.
I'm so USE to this there-and-gone-but-maybe-back relationship on the internet that it's created the gap between real life and internet life for me. I get very attached to people on here, there's no doubt about that, but still, they are mostly avatars to me or just names on the screen. Hell, most of them (Rosel or Trance for example) have changed their names so often that I don't even have that :3
You're all so transient on here. Does this make you less real to me? Yes. Does this make me care for you any less? No.
I hope nobody thinks of me as being some kind of jerk for this way of thinking. 'Sides, "friends" never last long in my life, either. I always end up moving and losing touch with them. Dangers of being a Navy brat. Internet friends do not have a problem with long distance relationships because they were born that way ^_^
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BACK ON TOPIC: I'm ready to go for midnight tonight!! I have restarted my computer to make sure it's in english mode so that it is reading word counts properly. >:] BRING IT ON!!
