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[spoiler]Okay, so this is neither's fault here, but it's a bit more of the fact that I feel like I handled it all in the wrong way. Y'know how sometimes when you message someone while they are talking to someone else, you get part of that intended message? Happend to me and this friend while he was talking to the girl who is currently mad at me and I caught a bit of an awkwad piece of the message and he pretty much said that I cut him off while talking with her (as if I didn't need more of a reminder). I said I'd pretend I never saw that, but the truth is that I don't think I'd be able to get what crossed my mind at that moment out of it

I know I'd never get it right the first time, so forgive me if I seem redunant if I post here again talking about this topic. As I mentioned before, I really miss talking with this friend of mine. She thinks I'm too stupid to be able to be just friends with her, from the sounds of it. I can be just friends. I just hate the feeling that I'm being lied to. I don't tell people it's alright and then turn around and use the stuff I've forgiven them for against them. I dunno, maybe I'm contradicting myself.

So, maybe I should say things that are new to this whole spiel:

1. Compared to her boyfriend, I've felt out done inevery aspect. To me, the only reason friends are kept is because they have some use to you. I'm talking more along the lines of personality. There are useful personality traits to get anywhere with anyone. In my eyes, anyone can be nice/kind, so it's a rather worthless trait to mention. It's a staple, it's always there.

Mine has been strained for years. I don't expect anything in return physically, but I expect that somehow I get my kindness returned in some form. People can't really say, "She did art for you. That's kind." That's because I comissioned her. I'm basically a willing money cow for her. That's not kindness, though. What do I get for being nice to a person? I get asked to go into a serious relationship and then taken out so quickly I barely had time to blink, I get replaced by our other friend, and then when I express that my feelings were hurt a lot and that I'm actually angry for once all Iget is shut down. They forgive me, but lie about that too. Either I am not a kind person (probably am, becase I claim to be kind), or karma decided to break on me. I don't wanna ramble, so moving on.

2. In addition to this, I don't feel particularly useful to anyone. I'm not good at one thing or another and evry time I try to get better by seeking feedback, I end up getting silence. Maybe not here, because I feel like most of you all see me as a whiny brat by now, but in other places, I feel like nobody really cares to read something that requires some form of commitment. I'm taking it as maybe I'm not good at that particular skill. I've been doing everything on my own for years. It's a hard habit to break, especially because it's spilled into how I want to fix this problem.

Nobody is coming to help me. Nobody will help me. Nobody could solve this problem right. I'd rather screw up by my own hands than have someone else screw me over. At least the wallowing is majorly confined to me and you all can just tell me to shut up and "look at the bright side" despite how nonexistant I may see it as right now.

3. I'm bothered by this all because nobody is being concise with me. I hate it when I get "maybe" or "give it time" as an answer. Tell me a "Yes" if I can regain your trust if I follow through and give me at least some semblence of a timespan. If a person said, "Months" I'd feel a bit more hopeful than my current status of "???" which equates to forever, for me. I don't want to be remembered in the way my friend and I parted. If we have to part, I want to make amends somehow and... [/spoiler]

...yeah...

I'm spiralling again. I need a quick slap.

By the looks of things, by the time this is all resolved, you'll have needed a flowchart just to make sense of everything.

As Captain Obvious, I deem that these people of conflict are (at least) avoiding you! I'm sure you know the reason why. Of course, if everyone behaved ideally and dealt with their problems efficiently and never wasted time, then you wouldn't be here. But people don't act that way, like, ever, so the least destructive thing you can do right now is, as you've heard already, to do nothing.

Honestly, I think you just need to stop getting so worked up in this whole shindig. Yes, it's annoying and it's not fun at all, but if you're going to go the "do nothing" route, if you become less emotionally invested in this, you'll fare much better. The only way to get out of the whole spiral-y thing you mentioned is to pull yourself out (or tether yourself to a pole, but for simplicity's sake, it's assumed neither tethering equipment nor pole is available).

So I just found these figures online and got my hopes up that someone finally made a decent Megaman Zero figure set:

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They're all custom made and not for sale.

Excuse me while I cry in the corner.

Most friends you make at school disappear over time. By the end of my "school" life I had changed friendship groups two or three times and then in the short space of 2 years for 6th form I changed them even more times. The fact is, friends will come and go and if the relationship is strained on both sides and one side doesn't want it to get better, let it die as "making" it work isn't good for you in the long run.

You'll find that you'll get closer friends when you leave school. Half of the people I got drunk with, passed exams with and had fun with at school I won't even friend on my Facebook now - whereas now most of my friends are people I've met outside of school and even work as well! There's a very small handful of people I'm still in contact with from school and that's because they are epic; however, there was a period of nearly 5 years where we didn't talk at all. Not because we rowed or anything, just because communication fell apart. It's just life.

Ah, I came to a fork in the road of education with most of my friends at one time. I had been told there was no way I'd get into the same course, so I didn't. Some of us used to be one of those groups in the hallways you think of as a group first and individuals second.

Well, as much as I hate to admit it, returning to Runescape might be possibly the best course of action. XD The old writing guild I belonged to is making a comeback and I have to say the attention we're receivin on the forums is enough to keep me distracted.

We're considered ancient. XD

Alarm system is making a strange beeping sound.

I don't know the activation/deactivation code.

It's just ... beeping.

Over.

And.

Over.

Every. 10. Seconds.

Why, God, why.

Anyone know how to remove a malware called Antimalware Doctor? I've run Malwarebites on it three times and it's still not gone.