Rant/Complain Thread: u mad?

[Yoonah]

[PLA]

^ You're a greyhound with clogs. :3

Shower with low ceiling. Knees hurt. ;_;

[zamisk]

Ran into the girl I like and the dick who dumped her on the C-Train today. Why are they hanging out again. It was new comic book day, though, so whatever.

[Trifkin]

: C Poor Zammy. /sends you lots of <3s

So I came to this restaurant/bar that I really like to get some NaNoWriting done... I choose the ONE night they have live music. : / Normally, I love live music. Absolutely adore it. But is it distracting as all hell? You bet it is. And I brought my good headphones but they're really huge and obvious and I don't want to insult the musicians by wearing them. u_u;;;;;

But hey- they just started playing Classical Gas (a fairly pleasant acoustic song), so maybe it's not all bad.

[noodles]

I really need someone to hang out with who didn't go to my school.

[Twat]

Still getting used to this new audio system.

There are three controls on the computer and two controllers externally. Sometimes I forget I had turned something on that I really should not have on at 04:30. While I am pumping up a tune on my computer, I am also setting off a sound system below me when everyone else is trying to sleep.

Since I have a noise-cancelling headset I will have no idea that I am doing this until I look at the lights on the external control panel. It makes me feel dreadful for what I have just done, as the glories of sleep are a mutual pleasure amongst all of us and I know what it is like to be woken up by an unneeded disturbance. The people around me are completely terrified of me so they would never dare approach about it unless they really have to, and when they do they are being very careful of their words and tone.

Nothing that can be done, other than just getting used to it and trying to be more technologically aware.

[Kinokokao]

I have a very narrow time frame in which to make my doctor's appointment.

Therefore it's on Monday, in the afternoon.

Precisely when my husband has class, and there's no way for him to get out of it.

I need someone to drive me, because on the way to the appointment I'll already be doped out on painkillers, and on the way back I'll likely be curled up in the fetal position wishing for a quick and merciful death.

So I've been frantically calling and texting people to try and arrange a ride, and it's made me feel very isolated and alone in Virginia. If I were in Oklahoma I could rely on my family. I'd have a much larger net of friends to rely on.

Here in Virginia, though... I still don't know that many people. :/

Also I'm super bummed because I really wanted my husband to go with me and hold my hand during the operation.

[Trifkin]

Awwww. : ( I can definitely relate to the isolation thing. I haven't had a vehicle since the day of my wreck. I've only made a handful of friends here, none of whom would be able/willing to cart me around to get to and from work. It's too far away, too early... and I don't know anyone well enough to infringe upon their time that way.

But you'll be okay, Kino. I'm sure you'll be able to find someone who can help.

[Kinokokao]

oh my god I was just reading about the procedure and now I need to go lay down in a dark room and think about clouds or something oh my god

GRRRR stupid work! We have an author signing that Thursday, which would be the only other day I could possibly go, and there's no way for me to get out of it. I'm super embarrassed to be in this situation, too! I can't actually explain to my boss what's going on, I just have to be like "oh, I know it's sudden, but it's just a weird scheduling thing, I only have this narrow timeframe to work with... also I don't know anyone in Virginia except my co-worker so you have to let her leave work early to drive me because I could get dizzy and faint and crash my car and die in a fiery ball of fire kthanks"

[NessySchu]

Operation? Poor Kino. I hope you find someone to help you!

[PLA]

Find a Vistani. Free healing ritual 1/day.

Edit: My other simply does not hear what she doesn't want to hear. She completely flat-out ignores answers she can't use to be a martyr.

It's physically impossible! No, your plan won't work because PHYSICS that's why! Stop blaming other people!

[Maxine MagicFox]

So lately I've had this odd overpowering desire that -_- I really really would like to go to a church. Which is kinda odd since in the few years of my life "going to church" has always been an eye-roll inducing experience. Nor have I ever considered myself the sort of Christian that - and I don't want to say that I don't care - but that I've never even felt the desire to plunge myself into a bible. I mean, I know the stories (somewhere I still even have this beautiful children's book of bible stories my mother got me for my birthday when I was like seven) but I know the history of the bible and how it was written and how many believes have abused it over the years to really care about the thing.

But for all that recently I've just had this huge desire that I really would love to find some nice little sedate church to go to and just kinda rejoice in my belief. Even if I have to suffer through another rendition or reminder of how Moses parted the sea (which of course my analytical brain wants to go back to all the Discovery channel programs I've ever watched that have tried to explain what could have possibly happened scientifically or metaphorically).

Errrm... -_- I wouldn't even know where to start if I wanted to try to find a nice church. *sigh* Nor do I want to listen to some preacher talk my ears off for hours trying to convince me why his church is probably the best way to go and how deep his belief is.

I'm of course also the sort that things: "really, Penna? do you want to even bother? You're going to be starting school up again here soon and when you're done with that you're going to be on a hunt for a good job - which will probably want you to work on weekends." And then I think "but some churches have mass not just on weekends." And then I realize how little I really know about churches except the few experiences my mom has forced on me since I was a child. Except for one summer children's bible study thing, going to church has NEVER been a positive experience or one that I've ever felt the need to repeat or bother with. (Note: NOT my mom's fault, and she often felt the same way in her own quest for a church which in the end ended with her also giving up and never returning to a church. I just don't want you to think that she purposely ruined my idea or enjoyment by forcing me to go. Apart from forcing me to wear panty hose and a dress mom has never forced me with anything in religion and has actually been a fabulous teacher. ^_^ I'M the one who wanted the children's bible story for my birthday - I cherished the thing. No, it was not my mom who ruined the idea of church. The churches did that. I don't want to give you guys a mistaken impression here in my rant.)

*sigh* I also worry, more than anything else, if I did start to look and try to hang out with other christians that I'll end up back peddling with my open minded-ness. You guys know how I still tend to look negatively on the situation of LGBT. I want to keep the mindset that I do have and still work on being more open about it. I worry that even if they do not force such ideas on me that I'll end up picking them up again anyways *sigh* -_-;

[Kinokokao]

What about a Unitarian church or something? I have a friend who is a Unitarian, and she likes it. From what I understand it's very liberal/understanding and it's more about just celebrating your spiritual devotion/belief and not a "politics at the pulpit" type thing. Plus Unitarians, from what I understand, are generally chill people who are very open minded.

[zamisk]

The only advice I can give is find a church that a good friend of yours goes to at first, and if not that, find one with people your age attending. It's the people I go back to church for, not the sermons.

Good luck, Maxine, dealing with churches can really suck. There are good ones out there, though, so keep trying.

[Maxine MagicFox]

*nods* Well, I'm not open enough about my religion that I would bother to ask someone what church they go to and since in my life I have no one that I would call "friend" enough to even open the conversation on that - I'm going to cross that one off the list.

Unitarian. I've never heard of that and it will be something that I keep in mind. -_-; I don't even know if I should try to bother with the area that I live in, though. It's retirement capitol of the world. There's a pentecostal church right next door to us that my mom went into and she said she was the youngest one there.

I'm thinking of broaching the subject with my mom and at least trying that one next door. Still, yeah, I agree with your comment Zamisk: community is what it's all about to me. I'm wanting to go to not only hopefully make a few friends but to be able to exchange ideas and opinions. It's not that I'm not content with my religion as-is but I really don't feel like I'm doing anything with it and sometimes I feel like the ideas are slipping from my head.

Sometimes I feel lately like the only time I even think of God is when I'm praying to him for a friend or for myself. I feel like that crappy daughter that just calls her dad once a month and only because she needs to beg for money. -_-; I think it's an absolute disservice to my religion. I mean, I say I'm "christian" but I dunno if I'm even that since most of my ideas were formed from my mother's teachings and from a few conversations with my high school friends at the lunch table. There's a lot left out of my education.