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So, admittedly, I do feel very stupid for getting upset over a very small thing yesterday. It also happened to be towards that friend that I had that whole spiel with last year. After taking a step back, I know I'm only overreacting and overanalyzing things, because I do like her still.

@_@ I don't think I screwed up too badly. I'm just gonna give her space for awhile, until she talks to me this time.

That's another thing I noticed: I always start the conversations. No matter who it is, I am the one who has to talk first. Always. Y'know, it feels like I'm forcing my presence on others after awhile. I never really got to know the feeling of someone actually approaching me and wanting to talk. XD To be honest, it'd be an interesting change for me.

That's gonna be my new outlook on things, now. Finding that balance of starting and responding. XD

EDIT:

Forgot that when I sent my text to my friend, it was 8 AM in the timezone of her college. /facepalm She's peeved at me for forgetting that. I forgot about that little factor.

Well, now's the time to back away and give space. xP This time, I'm having control over it, so I have some comfort in this. Before, I would have just badgered her into telling me. Gotta trust my gut for once.

I've run out of things to do without being distracted by the local idiots. Damnit, youtube, now you let me catch up?

I wonder if there's food tonight. That banana earlier was kind of small.



Edit: What's this? A second hamburger? Fuck you. I'm not begging for treats.

Thing is that they both are easily annoyed by me. When I kind of had a little episode last night, the masters of subtly didn't catch the subtle hint that the friends I was referring to were them. The friends, who'd not really notice if I just disappeared. =_=

They can't tell me to guess when they are angry with me with such subtle hints, if they can't catch mine, which are less.

Hmm! Perhaps this is why I no longer have friends. I avoid drama... friends come with drama... I avoid friends! D :

This year is the first year I have lots of friends, and it sucks cause there's so much crap between everybody. This is why I prefer having only a small handful of friends, although that's bitten me in the ass before too.

Humans are so icky! Ew! Shoo! Go away!

Perhaps if I stand still, they cannot see me.

Accidentally j-rocked my hair. Attempts to fix it have just made it worse.

You so stylin' B)

Edit: Nah. Still good sibling-person wasn't on chat tonight. PLA hates interrupted chat and worrying sibling-person. ´:3

^ You sound upset.

I tried to wear men's boxers today.

Wanted to tear my legs off.

Edit - Superbowl tomorrow.