Rant/Complain Thread: u mad?

[Reynard-Miri]

I want to surprise my girlfriend by giving her (and her family) a batch of cookies tomorrow. However, to do that I'd need to handle some raw dough.

Handling raw dough -> no water -> fuck.

[PLA]

[Maxine MagicFox]

I try not to complain about my situation.

Dad is laid off. All of my money - ALL OF MY MONEY - has been going to groceries or things like mortgage or whenever they need a little extra cash. I have NO problem with those concepts.

But when I hear that my sisters are paying a hundred some dollars for b-day gifts for her friends, or planning on going to some wine festival and getting hotel room and enjoying her time with her boyfriend, I tend to look back at my bank account and think things like "oh... there was a Steam sale and I couldn't even afford $5 for a Ys game." or "Damn... I missed out on that pre-order bonus of SMTIV... -_-; another game I've missed to play with my friends." or "Omg... my school payment is due... but... I need gas for the car... I wish dad would stop keeping the car so much and making extra trips back and forth to places."

So, when my mom has another heart problem and ends up in the hospital, I tend to take offense when my sisters start talking about "Let's start purchasing healthier stuff." I dunno... I tend to think things like "omg... that healthy jar of ragu my sister bought was almost $3 more..." "omg... WHEAT NOODLES? they want to buy wheat noodles... how much is that?!!"

So when things are said "Oh get over it! Don't you want to eat healthier! This is for mom's health! You're so afraid of change." I tend to get a little bit pissed off.

I get even more pissed off when they say things like "Just give the normal amount of money for groceries and we'll pay the extra." Like that's going to solve EVERYTHING... while they still plan vacations and mall visits.

So, now they think I have some problem with eating healthier and losing weight when seriously all I'm thinking is "omg... am I going to make it to next paycheck." But, they don't really give a damn about that, and to say it out loud in front of my parents (one of whom is in the hospital, the other who is laid off and already feels awful for taking my money) is just something I'm not going to do to them.

So, I'll sit here in my room, cry about my money problems, while my sister goes off to go quad riding with her boyfriend and the other sits there making up these healthy meal plans.

I hate my life right now. I seriously just don't even want to climb out of my bed. Just... leave me the fuck alone. Oh, but I can't. I have to go work at McD's where the AC is broke, struggle through asthma attacks while my boss yells things like "WHY DON'T YOU GO TO THE DOCTOR'S PENNA?!" And all I'm being paid is $8, while I have another job lined up that will pay more but hasn't started yet or even give me a DATE... but then I realize "oh... I need to get a car with that extra money." So, when I start paying for insurance and car payments, whatever extra money I've made is already eaten up.

But, it's kewl. I'm fine with this. I'll just sit here... wondering if maybe I shouldn't sell off my Wii and some of my favorite DS games to bring in a little extra cash into my life for things that I need.

Yeah... my sister keeps begging me to go to the gym with her. A membership there is $30. Oh and as an added bonus they have no AC. Yes, let me EXERCISE in the HEAT while I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE MONEY TO GO THE DOC'S FOR A RESCUE INHALER (and even had to borrow some albuterol from someone at work... my GOD that was embarrassing as hell)!! .... x_x; Excuse me while I say "no and thank you"

[Hong]

:( Maxine, hunny... I don't want to speak about anyone I don't know so I won't say anything about it, but I hope things improve for you. I know it's not worth a lot, but you can have some love from me over the Internet. I admire your strength for being able to maintain yourself as much as you have. Many others would have done something more rash by now.

[PLA]

[Maxine MagicFox]

How can I yell at them when they bring up the fact that my sister is going to uni and my other sister is going to community and trying to save up for a car.

How can I possibly say "fork over more money" when... what... I'm just crying because I can't have a video game?

It's just... what the hell... how are they affording all of this extra stuff? It's not like they haven't given them ANY money to help out. I just feel... that it's seriously imbalanced. And... I don't want to fight them. I HATE getting into arguments with them because they just make me feel like even more shit. "What? We can't go out and be with our boyfriends? You're just wanting a video game? How selfish can you be? We give money, too." And then I SO enjoy it when they bring up my perceived "OCD tendencies" - "I hate change." or Health: "Yeah, sitting and playing video games is SO healthy. You don't want to even eat healthier." or I REALLY enjoy this one: "Well, if you're jealous, why don't you get a boyfriend who will take you out and do things with you, too?"

I always come out of a fight feeling like I'm just not normal. Which I know I'm not. I mean... what person DOESN'T want to find someone to date and be with. I just wish they wouldn't throw it up into my face and understand that I also don't get their relationships: I don't get why the yell about a boyfriend's annoying tendencies. Apparently "so, dump him" is not the correct answer. o_O; If you don't like someone, why keep them in your life? >_> Not that I can really discuss this sort of issue, I guess, when I have no real friends, and apart from co-workers, the only people I talk to are you guys. -_-; But online friends are so much more convenient. If I don't wanna talk or they are annoying me, I can just click a red "x".

I KNOW I'm not normal, just stop throwing it into my face whenever you're pissed off at me!!

And for the record: I'm NOT OCD.

[PLA]

[Maxine MagicFox]

As for my asthma treatments:

On a normal day-to-day basis, I don't NEED an inhaler. I've outgrown it for the most part. Except when I'm sick, over-exercise in heat or cold.

It's only a problem now because the temps have been soaring into the 90s and the building that I'm WORKING in, has reached 96 easily.

^_^ I can even manage to shovel snow these days. I just know when to back off and make sure that my scarf is carefully wrapped around my mouth and nose so that I'm not breathing in that super-chilled air.

It really pisses me off >_< FIX THE DAMN AC!! You're putting my life in jeopardy and why do I have to procure a doctor's bill because you're being too damn cheap.

I didn't have the money, but when my room AC broke down, I spent the extra $100+ to fix it. x_x I'm STILL juggling that cost. Actually, that's where the money for SMTIV went. *sigh* <_< cuz if I don't have it, my asthma will act up. Better to spend a $100, then $400-600 for the asthma supplies.

Pfftt <_< on ER visit for nebulizer medicine cost me nearly $3000. That's STILL an outstanding bill. -_-; *sigh*

I can't wait for my new job. AC'ed building and (even though it's sucky) medical insurance. Plus I'm sitting down and not running around near fry vats (another trigger - which I've had arguments about in the past - if they don't change the filters, I suffer. I KNOW when the filters aren't changed. The old maintenance guy use to hate me whenever I tattled on him).

[Drathi]

I wish I could talk to my parents about my troubles without having to worry about the inevitable, "GET LIFE EXPERIENCE AND YOU'LL GET CONFIDENCE!" crap. In general, I'd love to talk to my parents without them acting like your stereotypical old person, going on about how fucked up our generation is and how there are no honorable people left.

...honestly, with the amount of times I've heard that word come from their mouths, I'm beginning to think we're distantly related to the Starks. OTL

[Reynard-Miri]

[zamisk]

I just had a 20-minute long argument with my mother, made my own big decision, amd stood up for myself. I didn't lose my temper or even say the inconsiderate things I could have said to "win" instantly. So why do I feel so shitty?

[Hong]

Because even if you aren't upset, she probably is.

[zamisk]

Oh everybody is upset, I just am glad I didn't lose my temper or back down. I told her that I am saving enough money at my part time job and will not get a full time one like she's insisting. She's calling me lazy and saying I'm only sponging off of her and my father.

I'm not lazy, I've been spending 6-7 hours a day drawing my comic I want to publish. Is it selfish to want to get this comic done before I'm busy for a year and it goes on the back burner? Next week I'm working around 18 hours, even if they're all 3-5 hour shifts. And I'm making an extra 60 bucks a week all summer from another thing. I just don't think I should be putting my dreams aside before I even start my real life out of high school. I'm helping out around the house a ton and trying not to be a burden.

The problem is she's threating to not pay the money towards my tuition my parents offered because I'm so disgustingly lazy in her eyes. 1000 dollars a semester, so just under a third of the full year cost. That makes it unrealistic to go to school in the fall. They paid that for my sister and she is more of a burden than I am, plus I'm moving out literally as soon as I can so I'm not anymore. I just thought I could count on that money as a last favor from them before I'm completely self-sufficient. This is why I try not to take any favors fromy parents. They get off on holding stuff over my head.

I'm not lazy, I have different priorities. Working 40 hours a week all summer on top of all the shit I do to keep this house going would leave no time for my art, which is my future career. Am I the one being unreasonable?

Sorry, this got longer than I intended. I'm just really stressed. This isn't the only thing that's not going well ony life but it affects my whole next year.

[PLA]

[Hong]

Zamisk, sweetie, it's alright to vent.

It is a rather unfortunate problem. Generally my idea of parenting would have her bear with you for a bit longer and give you the support you need before booting you out the door. This is the time when you need support the most; five years from now she will probably be like WHY DONT YOU EVER CALL OR VISIT ANYMORE. I don't want to tell people how to be parents but, on a moral, non-obligatory level, I feel her attitude is a little misaligned. Of course technically she is not obligated to give you anything, so if things go pear-shaped, I am afraid you may end up doing what is necessary to survive... :[

Well, I hope for the best, friend.