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Sink is flooding. Apparently this has happened to previous tenants if this building. I am super not happy about the possible implications for the remaining 11 months of our lease. =|

For days I've told my dad to not monopolize the Cottonmobile (we are both using it), he gets mad at me because I've been too assertive. Totally worth the rant, since he did monopolize the Cottonmobile. He also has his own car but I can't drive it because of its huge size.

my brother is an idiot and downloaded mackeeper. i mean, really, he downloaded it as part of "something to help me make things in minecraft"

Bad fucking day at work. Just awful. Worse, lately I've just been feeling incredibly alone. Probably because my sister is away on vacation. Apart from my sisters I don't really have anyone that I talk to. Not a single friend or anyone.

Was kinda pathetic. I woulda liked someone to rant to and was kinda hoping to rant a bit when I went to my local B&N and went up to the starbucks counter. Normally with the staff I'm on the sort of basis where it's a "how was your day?" "oh you know this and this happened" and they'll say "tell me about it, this and this happened." That sorta thing.

Unfortunately I'm also on the sort of basis where I can stand in line for five minutes behind other customers and by the time I'm up at the counter, they've already got my order ready because, you know, I order the same damn thing every day, and the order taker is already punching my order in.

Tch, I didn't even get to say what my order was much less RANT. And by the time I got home after working for three solid hours on my story, my mom was already in bed and dad was deeply engrossed in a movie. It has occurred to me that as of 5:45 when I clocked out today I've actually spoken only a handful of words.

-_- *sigh*

^

I go weeks only muttering curses and whistling. :3

Okay so I've been officially doing my play for audiences since Thursday now. I had one on Thursday and three on Friday.

There were a lot of rehearsals and I honestly don't have very much to do during the play at all but I'm still feeling awful especially after yesterday when I had to get up at six in the morning and ended up staying up until eleven at night. I'm beginning to get the feeling that nobody really wants me there though, especially after a number of incidents yesterday which I won't go into because it's kinda more personal stuff than what I feel good in giving out plus I'm a lazy bum and don't wanna bother typing down everything.

Anywho, yeah, I'm stressed, tired, and probably getting sick now. I have two plays to do today and one tomorrow then I'm done for who knows how long and I'll end up not having anything to do and be depressed out of my mind, especially if I can't clear up whether people there actually care much about me as much as I had once hoped.

/sending everyone hugs

@sponge: Speaking as the close friend of a Theater major, people probably like your work a lot better than you expect they do.

i know i've been posting here a lot but oh good lord what a day

I expected the last show to be the least stressful but nope.
And my best friend doesn't like me anymore because I'm such a huge idiot, and I won't be able to apologize properly for God knows how long. She probably won't forgive me anyways so whats the point really I just suck.
Oh yeah and somebody told me to kill myself so there's that I suppose.

The reason for apologizing is because it is the right thing to do.

Also, please do not kill yourself. It would make us all very sad. I've been to that dark place, and it's not fun, by any stretch of the imagination, but it does get better. (Because of bupropion, in my case.)

My best friend of many years and I had a huge falling out a while back, but we remain best friends to this day. We had a summer where we didn't talk and he was pissed at me and I thought it was my fault, but it turned out his dad had cancer and was not responding to chemo. He just handled the incident I caused poorly because he was dealing with other stuff. Something else might be bothering her, maybe just give her some space for the summer and see if it all works itself out. Hope you feel better, dude.

Couldn't you apologize to her through text or email? Not the best way, but you wouldn't have to wait months.

And what ReyMiri said about not killing yourself.
Hope you'll feel better soon.

It's fine, everybody is at least secretly a destructive idiot.

You'll die eventually, either way. Nobody can take your death away from you, and it won't make a difference a hundred years from now, so don't feel like you're in a hurry. :3

one day i'll ACTUALLY put down my whole multi-paragraph story about what i WANT to put... but until such a day happens where i feel im beyond that all has come i'll settle with this:

this freaking rash. its killing me. holy crap. send help. good lord. my neck and chest arent my own anymore. im bleeding. from the sheer amount. of scratching. ive done. to my neck. im serious. send help. itching cream can only do so much. i want to sleep again. 12 hours of sleep over 6 days isnt healthy.
i'd go to the doctors BUUUUT our family doctor is booked for the next coupla days(and i kinda DONT feel like incurring the extra fees of going with someone else) and the cream staves off the.... horribleness. so maybe a couple more days wont do anything worse. and theres a possibility its just a thing and MIGHT pass by then.

IF this rash kills me... i sorta kinda liked you all. i'll miss you ;-;