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I've tried, and although he's been ignoring and avoiding me, i'm going to keep getting him to talk to me.

alright, on a much lighter note of ranting, i decided to play shining force 2 all night and now i have to watch a kid for the next 6 hours. i'm tired, but i think i can do it. would have been better without my grandpa being a jerkface the moment he saw me.

Well, i had it. i broke up with my boyfriend. his refusal to talk to me was the last straw. So i'm alone once more. guess i should have expected they would do this. everyone else always keeps me for a bit and then throws me out. at least i know i made his life better by helping him stop a dangerous addiction. I'll keep my good memeories, and try to distance myself from him, unadd him on things, all that.

I'm sorry you're going through that, Zypose. Let me know if you'd like someone to talk to. <3

You're alone again, but by what I hear, it was probably for the better.

On the brightside, you're simply gorgeous and have an even more beautiful personality. When and if you ever want to go back out there into the realm of romantics, you'll have an easy time with appeal.

Thank you everyone. it's been hard, but i'm doing alright. It's nice to know you all care.

i dont know what to do anymore. ive had all this piling on my chest for over a year now but i have no right to vent. no one's been able to "help" and im too pathetic to help myself.
theres no one i can talk to. no one i can open up to... and due to the nature of it all, i cant even say anything even if i wanted to... im actually starting to lose it. losing sleep for days is becoming more and more commonplace....

i think i need professional help but again, im at no liberty to disclose most of the issues anyway so it still wouldnt be any help....

i dont know what to do anymore...and its starting to affect the few people bothering to still care about my sorry hide...

Could you tell one of us through PM? Anonymous folks on the internet don't count, right?

its not that i dont feel comfortable talking about it to anyone via PM. its more of the subject itself involving more than just me. so talking about it, even to a "random nobody" undermines the entire issue and would be... rude at best to everyone else involved who dont want the information to be spread around. even if they would never find out. it wouldnt feel right.

yet at the same time it IS eating me up. it has been. i feel parts of me slipping and i just dont know what to do anymore, is all...

^ Yep, that happens.

Tumblr is so salty about Dragon Ball Super episode 5. Meanwhile I'm salty about tumblr being salty about DBS episode 5. Like wow, calm down you manbabies.

Well, put bluntly, I've been booted from my acting group because I was being seen as unable to handle the pressure and they didn't want to have to deal with me.
To be honest though I was willing to keep going it's probably for the best I don't go back there. There are people that I liked there, but there were also people that I used to like but eventually I ended up disliking them, people who I wanted to like but ended up disliking them, and then were the just plain jerks that I had to be around because that was the only group my once-friend was in, but now I realize that it wasn't really worth it to be with them anyways.
Mostly I just feel bad because my parents put a lot of money into getting me into this group and I feel like I just squandered it all. The whole experience has sort of killed my desire to act, and really other than that I don't have very many worthwhile skills so yeah.
Things are not all bad, however, as I am still planning on doing plays. The small group that I did my earlier plays with is back together, it seems, and I've managed to get myself into the position of co-director, which, though not all that amazing as our group is really only a small club, is something that I'll try to get into. I said before that I don't have a desire to act, but I'm hoping that when the time comes that we get started I'll be a bit more over this whole dilemma.

some stores broke the streetdate for MGSV so now i have to hide from twitter etc to avoid spoilers

^ It was his sled.

FUCK!